i don't wanna be anything... other than me

For sure i want to do what i want. Deep inside of me i want to be free. i want to enjoy my life. i want to do stuff i like. i want to live my life my way.i want to choose my own path.but like i'd said before, it's not easy... you can't just leave anything behind , and put or throw them away. anyway , anyhow...someway...somehow...i'll try to achieve my dream...

( Laura Vandervoort - 'Kara'- Supergirl from Smallville Season 7)

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GAVIN DEGRAW ~ I DON'T WANT TO BE

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am I the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay dust stone
and now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE ANYTHING...
ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME...

I don't wanna be...
I dont't wanna be...
I don't wanna be ...
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DESPERATE!

What should i say? i'm so desperate to have a better life. Although i'm very grateful with my life right now, but it is not the life that i want. Argh... kinda messy with my own word. I'm 24 now , and i'm wondering ... till now what is my achievement so far? There are so many things and stuff i want to do my way, but... did i achieve or do those thing?
Work? 8 to 5 , kinda sometimes make me BORING. Nothing so special , sitting down and typing and open the mail n etc... i want something more productive and active and. i'd thought on doing a freelance job... but it's not so easy to quit your job then suddenly do a freelance...dough... yeah, money is a crucial thing forever!
But no matter how i dislike the situation right now , i must admit. i'm still in a good position, there is others who is not working and earn nothing at all . Life is must be harder for them. No matter what i should work n get smarter. Learn more n achieve more...
that's it for today...

FIRST POST

GOOD MORNING...
yaikz, this is my first post for Soliloquize-solo. What? why Soliloquize?. Simple.I'm Talking to myself...and i want to post about anything that come across my mind or any latest news that i think i should share it with others.Crap? yeah, maybe i'll write some about that.

get a LIFE to LIVE...
IT's NOT easy to be ME - Five For Fighting

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me....