Why Should i ?

My...oh my... i'm shock! only 4 post for 2009 ! shame on me... darn!

so much thing to do but so little time ( is that an excuse?...hahaha) .I should spend my time for me... at least 60% for myself...and the rest is for others...

How is Life ? How is Work ? How is everything ? Where am i now ?

i'm still stuck in my own 'box' ... Can't go anywhere, can't do so much thing , can't be myself...

WHY SHOULD I ? why should i ... why should i let others controlling my life. I must stand and fight for myself... it's time to walk the talk... it's time to aim the star... it's time for me...

~can't wait for Heroes Volume 5: Episode18 next week... i think Sylar will turn side (good) and Peter will earn his power back(yeah!...love it) coz together they will fight Samuel and co !

STUCK !

arghhhhH! long time with no entry / post to write. I'm stuck in the middle of worklife and myself. Sometimes you just wish that life will be easy! but the truth is... it's not so damn easy...

Everyday you interact with people. You might hang out with them because you wat to or because you don't have any choice. You might really like them or not think much of them at all. Relationships are not just about who you are "going out with" or "hooking up with". They are about the interaction you have with people every day. Your relationship might be close , supportive , stressful or really not matter to you much.

Here are some examples

- Family - you might or might not live with them ; get along with them or have massive fights ; never have met them ; or they are you best friends

- Online mates - Never seen their face but chat all the time

- TV,movie Characters or our favourite band - You probably have never met them, but you see or hear them all the time...

-School or work - You might not hang out with them if you didn't have to

-Your partner - He or shecould be you best mate or the person who gets to you most!

Think of all the people in your life. they might be people you know personally or have never met. All of these relationships hav ean effect ( good or bad ) in your life This effect can be tiny , huge or anywhere in between.

Here are some of the great things that relationships can do for you.

-Make you feel like you belong and are valued.

-increase your confidence

-provide understanding, respect, trust and care

-Support you to try out ideas, new things or discuss your opinions

-provide a safe place to be, and learn about...yourself

What do you think makes a good relationship? How does a positive relationship help you? how do you choose your relationships and why? how do you cope with relationships that you don't really want anything to do with... ?

i'll write down more about it in my next post...

OBAMA WIN ?

Taken aback ? Surprise ? Don't be.Every American now is counting the Presidency Election. Who will win? Barrack Obama with his running mate , Biden or John Mccain with his 'mate' Palin... Democrate VS Republican... ( yup, off course there are small party involve in this race... Green party? and...what is the other one... aaa...) nevermind... :)

Both candidates have a strong supporter with them. They put all effort that they can to make sure their candidate will be the President Of United States... HOt Seat!. Show your love with something like this... ( pick one )

i don't wanna be anything... other than me

For sure i want to do what i want. Deep inside of me i want to be free. i want to enjoy my life. i want to do stuff i like. i want to live my life my way.i want to choose my own path.but like i'd said before, it's not easy... you can't just leave anything behind , and put or throw them away. anyway , anyhow...someway...somehow...i'll try to achieve my dream...

( Laura Vandervoort - 'Kara'- Supergirl from Smallville Season 7)

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GAVIN DEGRAW ~ I DON'T WANT TO BE

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am I the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay dust stone
and now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE ANYTHING...
ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME...

I don't wanna be...
I dont't wanna be...
I don't wanna be ...
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DESPERATE!

What should i say? i'm so desperate to have a better life. Although i'm very grateful with my life right now, but it is not the life that i want. Argh... kinda messy with my own word. I'm 24 now , and i'm wondering ... till now what is my achievement so far? There are so many things and stuff i want to do my way, but... did i achieve or do those thing?
Work? 8 to 5 , kinda sometimes make me BORING. Nothing so special , sitting down and typing and open the mail n etc... i want something more productive and active and. i'd thought on doing a freelance job... but it's not so easy to quit your job then suddenly do a freelance...dough... yeah, money is a crucial thing forever!
But no matter how i dislike the situation right now , i must admit. i'm still in a good position, there is others who is not working and earn nothing at all . Life is must be harder for them. No matter what i should work n get smarter. Learn more n achieve more...
that's it for today...

FIRST POST

GOOD MORNING...
yaikz, this is my first post for Soliloquize-solo. What? why Soliloquize?. Simple.I'm Talking to myself...and i want to post about anything that come across my mind or any latest news that i think i should share it with others.Crap? yeah, maybe i'll write some about that.

get a LIFE to LIVE...
IT's NOT easy to be ME - Five For Fighting

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me....